January 2012
In the boy’s bed while he’s out with his friends.
This doesn’t feel like fuck buddies anymore… Ha.
:)
spent last night curled up in bed with a boy watching Mean Girls and wrestling over what side of the bed we get.
It’s ridiculous how much he has improved my mood considering how I felt yesterday.
last night was easily one of the worst nights of...
a guy a hate was there, i drank far too much, i fell over and ripped my leggings and cut open my knee, i decided that when we (the 2 most emotional drunks ever) were fucked up would be the best time to tell her I had slept with the guy she likes.
Then starts the trying to find people, the tears, the awkward moments. The guy goes home. Soph takes me home. I eat chips and cry more. My fuck buddy...
i'm such a fucking dick.
The amount of sex I've had the past 2 nights is...
wow.
fuck i hate mornings.
i hate fire alarms and phone alarms and friends who text me when i didn’t get to bed till 6am.
GAH.
Woke up and can’t get back to sleep :(
saying that, it has proved to be a much better...
not looking forward to tomorrow, though.
may have just slept with my best friend’s flatmate.
oops.
Can’t decide if my body loves or hates me for dragging it to the gym so much this past week.
No super hot guy today - just some dickhead who got on the treadmill right next to me (what’s wrong with the rest of them???) and then proceeded to a) smell bad and b) run faster than me the whole time.
I understand. You sweat at the gym. But please don’t sweat on the treadmill next to...
eating this tuna pasta would be about a million times easier if I actually liked sweetcorn. Or if, y’know, I wasn’t so lazy and made it myself without sweetcorn rather than relying on Sainsburys all the time.
Things I need to do today:
buy cigarettes
buy energy drinks
cook lunch
go to the gym
get really really drunk
aaaaand off to the gym I go :)
finally watching the inbetweeners film
perfect way to relax after today :)
I have written almost 1/4 of my assignment
as well as typed up my observation, hoovered the whole flat and deep cleaned the kitchen.
Productive day.
think my flatmate who’s just got in would find it weird if i got up now to clean the kitchen?
can’t sleep. don’t particularly want to sleep.
joydivsion:
if a guy ever falls in love with me i will literally die of shock
Just watched The Bucket List.
Feeling inspired.
fuck you, nails.
why don’t you ever work?? urgghh
Such an incredibly good mood right now :)
I love 2012 so much already. This whole trying to be more confident, try new things and be a better person thing is working out really well for me.
going to Joel's tonight :)
shit tv, probably a lot of Beyonce and helping him out with his new tattoo.
I love having a gay best friend.
5pm and I've only had one cigarette today :)
I’ve also tidied my desk (still need to organise my notes though), put all my clothes away, and put my new duvet on.
I like being back in Sheffield :)
Actually made quite a bit of progress on my room tonight - wardrobe’s looking good, at least.
I want to go to bed now, but the temptation to keep on tidying may be too hard to resist!
starting my new years resolution of thinning my...
filled 1 bin bag already…. and this is just the clothes I have at uni :|
then I’m going to start trying to organise my desk!
